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So I guess this is like a I will update every 6 months...

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 05:32:55 GMT

Yet again, I still want to know why anyone doesn't use this anymore...but then again that is a rhetorical question...well anyway you can find me on myspace....www.myspace.com/happygilmorex or Facebook or myyearbook....have a good one...

Who uses this anymore?

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 07:52:56 GMT

Yet again, it has been ages since I last use xanga, since I been such a myspace.com whore. I would like to use this more but no one gives me a reason to. Oh well I figure I could blog it every now and then. Well best get out of here.

unT Happy

Monday, January 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 17:35:30 GMT

Its been months since I last updated this shit I figure that I could update this, for once I guess. :)

In Regards to the Post yesterday...

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 05:00:24 GMT

I know some of you have read my post yesterday. I know that for a fact that is not like me to be that way. But everyone has their time to go through it right? I am not fully over it yet, but I will do just fine. I posted that out of anger as I have said in that post. Those aren't the only things that are bothering me at the moment. I cannot sit here and dwell on this whole issue. I am in a relationship right now as well, this is adding to part of the stress. On a personal note, I don't think that I am ready for. She has fallen for me faster than I thought, and faster than I expected. Its kind of hard. She wants me to call her all the time, not to mention that she is always worried about me. I am not saying that is bad or anything, there is just alot to handle there. I really don't want to talk about this but it is somthing that I have to do. I'm not the kind of guy that likes to talk on the phone alot, she calls me all the time, I keep missing calls and I feel like an asshole becuase I miss her calls, then I miss hanging out with her due to my other issues as posted previously. I know i keep going on and on about my issues, maybe just maybe someone has feedback. I have come to the conclusion that I am not over a certain someone, and I thought it would be easy to get over it, but I am not. I just want to be single a lil bit longer...Just another one my problems I talked about yesterday.

I just want to start over, at least from High School, but then I guess I wouldn't be where I am now. And for those of you that gave me feedback that day, I appreciate it. It has helped out a bit. I have just got off track a little bit. I can't just dissappear, and if I left and came back then that means I would just be running away from my problems and that would not help anything. Everything will be ok

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 05:15:34 GMT

So thats it. I'm gonna be gone this friday. On a personal note, I don't think I will make it. I gonna get kicked out of my house and become a real bum, a loser, not worth a damn. I can't seem to find a job and bills are stacking up. Pretty soon I won't be able to be found. I do not want to be a bourden on anyone else. I don't know what the hell it is im gonna do. This shit is scary, no joke. No car, no one warm place to come home to. My dad has placed this shit on me, and now I can't even have a nice convorsation with him without hearing something about "well if you had listen to me..." or "The 15th of November your out..." I'm all kinds of fucked up, yes I may seem happy all the time but not always, I have issues to do deal with, I just don't show it. I'm breaking my neck trying to find a damn job. Then I have to hear this "Some income is better than no income, but you have to start sending money my way too" Expecting me to work a 6$ an hour job, pay my bills and pay him. Fuck I'm in the hole 10,000$ to him, and I trying to get help with that but that's just not happening. Easier said than done right? I had a job but I pretty much in a nutshell was laid off. They told me I could come back, and my dad tells me why dont' you just go back and ask them. Not gonna be taken well. Then If I did come back it would take 3 weeks to get me back in the system again and work terrible hours for nothing, only for me to be more irritable and come home and not want to do shit, plus my dumb ass needs to be in school. I'm getting any help with that either. To be honest I as lost as the next person. Active Duty is an option but thats gonna take forever and a day to get done, and I don't have enough information for me even consider all of the options. I am under pressure with no releif, and getting kicked out will only make it worse, not only do i have to find a place to stay I have to also worry about pissing someone else off. I don't plan on becoming a damn leech. I was taught better than that. I just need a little extra help here and there. I know I wrote this in anger but I needed some kind of release so I can get all my thought out there, so if someone does read this, just maybe I can get a little bit of feedback and other options, so that I know I am not at a total loss. I belive this is the first time that my dad hasn't made any suggestions for me, HE is usuallly the biggest help but in the last few months I haven't got any real good suggestions from him exepct for GO BACK TO MID-STATES. Then mom is always grilling me about, I don't listen blaz-a-blaz. I'm tired just like they are...I just want to have a convo with my dad without hearing all that all the time...*sigh*. Agh lets just face it, I'm a fucking dead beat with no real goals in life, fuck I'm still living at home, I'm not in school, and I don't have a decent job with my while...I just don't feel like I reached my parents standards..........I think I am just gonna disappear for a while and not come back...There is no sense in me trying to be the best that I am when, I have already failed...It's bad enough to the point to where I want to cry, but I can't and I won't. I'm done for, the end is near and there is no turning back. It's like im on a cliff climbing up, no better yet I'm just spinning my tires going no where faster than God knows what. I am off in the deep end. FAILURE, FUCK-UP, LOSER, take your pick it's there thats what I am. Now I am at the point where I don't even feel worthy to even have my fathers name...I am named after a great person, I was hoping that I could do the same but I FAILED. Agh.....

I'm done.....I'm appologize for failing all of you esp. my parents.......

SPC Robert Earl Gilmore, Jr.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:42:01 GMT

So after about 2 long years of trying to figure out Active Directory, I finally added and second server to my network. That means that anyone who uses computers at my house must have some kind of logon :). Ha Ha yes...I have been busy working on a new web page for everyone. But thats is just a small part of good news. If you don't already know I do have another girlfriend, so if you haven't been seeing me around that is why. If you have tried to call me recently my phones is off cuz of the bill :(, which says that I need another GODDAMN job. Thats the other shit I have been busy with among other things. I am just downright tired and i need to move out soon. This is sometime just overwhelming at times, so much at once. I makes me wonder if I will make it, (not to sound to cyincal or anything like that. I may or may not leave...I still have yet to make a decision about that...*sigh*....Well I hope everyone is doin just fine...just hit me if you need to. I have got shit to do....late

Anubis....The new angel of Death....

Happy

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Thank you guys for the support that you give it helps in the worst of times...deffinately noted.....

Happy Gilmore-----The one and only

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 11:32:31 GMT

I am just that pissed off now. I'm so damn irritated that I about to say FUCK IT and just leave...Not come back for a while....

1st she leaves me, my job sucks, and I have bills out the ass and about 2000000 different things have gone wrong. I have been in sprialing state of depression for the last 3 weeks and I came home from work early today. I am tired of the bullshit....yes I know that it will always be there but there is a time when someone cracks and I have reached that point....Im done thats all there is to it, I'm done....don't fuck with me today I need some time to myself, I have to get my shit together.......

SPC Gilmore

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 23:59:19 GMT

She left me...That's all that needs to be said....

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:27:47 GMT

New thing are about!!!! The web server will now Be linuX!!!!!! And no muffler on the Volvo....

Monday, July 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:30:31 GMT

New pics enjoy!!!!!!